There's been a small, quiet pull in my heart to come back to this space for a while now. To put thoughts into words and words into posts. To again open my life and let the words shape my heart. But I felt God saying "not yet, not yet"
This time away, these months spent in reality and away (mostly) from the internet? They have restored my soul. The last 7 months have been some of the most redemptive days of my life. I wish I could put it all in words here, and maybe some day I will, but these months have been good. So so so good.
I didn't think I would come back to this space for a long long while, maybe not ever. I began to make peace with writing for myself, writing for the Lord. I thought deep thoughts and shared them with close friends and really thought that was going to be my norm forever. I have a wonderful, Jesus-loving community surrounding me and cheering me on. My ministry to students is thriving. I was fully content with exactly what God has given me.
I didn't need blogging. I didn't need affirmation or likes or shares. My thoughts were just thoughts and that was totally okay.
And that's when I knew it was finally okay to come back. Because I don't need to blog. I don't need to write for an audience. I don't need to share my words with anyone but Jesus.
In that contentment, I've found freedom.
So now, I feel free to blog. And yet, also free to not blog.
There are thoughts in my head- deep, big, thoughtful thoughts. Ones that I can't wait to process through in this space and in other spaces.
I don't need to think them here, but the Spirit has begun to show me that it is a GIFT to think them here in this space. It is a gift to share with you, to hear from you, to use the internet for the glory of God.
So I'm shaking off the dust, clearing out the cobwebs and returning here. I hope you'll join me.